glimpse

i caught a glimpse

of real love.

pure, mind boggling, it's really ok love.

despite our differences.

despite being on a different page.

love.

and i have hope for seeing more.

this love is healing and freeing and i was honored to receive it 3 times over.

twice from total strangers who i had the priviledge to truly meet.

once from someone close to me who i had the priviledge of being completely open with.

this glimpse should stay with me.

i'll do whatever i can to make sure it does and that i replicate it.

i hope that you can catch a glimpse too.

intensity

sometimes the intensity of it all comes crashing in like a strong wave on shore.

the intensity of being different.
the intensity of being an agent of change.

the intensity of trying to sort through relationships.
the intensity of loving someone beyond reach.

the intensity of seeing the world differently.
the intensity of expressing it.

i feel, more than anything today, the intensity.

i am unsure of what to do with this intensity, other than penning songs and posting blogs. i have to keep my mouth shut. like a closet within a closet. a secret room of the soul.

the intensity of dreaming about someone.
the intensity of dreaming she says "i love you"...

the intensity of holding it in.
the intensity of doing what seems like the right thing.

surely, we have all felt it, breathed it, tasted it. gay, straight, or somewhere in between or other.

the intensity of grace.
the intensity of unconditional love.

surely, it is here for us all. free. yet costly.

the intensity of a life lived in love.